All along the way God has placed incredible blessings in our path! These blessings have taken the form of the love and support of friends and family, kindhearted and competent medical staff, and an increased awareness for people and things around us.
“STAY ABSOLUTELY STILL!” To help with this, you are given headphones and the option to play an assortment of music. I chose country music, which I didn’t have turned up high enough to hear in comparison to the loudness of the MRI machine, so throughout the process I heard this one ironic part of a song, “You’re going to miss this. You’re going to want this back. You’re going to wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast. These are some good times, take a good look around. You might not know it now, but you’re going to miss this…” then the clamoring of the machine started again and I saw my own tear fall on the machine below me. I couldn’t believe I was here, let alone believe that I might someday miss it all!
This gloomy feeling and the giant headache were my companions outside of the hospital and I was keenly aware of the stares of pity that were happening all around me. I was getting all fired up inside when the thought came to my mind, “DANGER! THIS MAGNET IS ALWAYS ON.” I took a deep breath and realized that my hypersensitivity to others had been caused by my own negative view on things, not the increase of stares or pity. I was seeing my own negative thoughts reflected in others!
The reality for all of us is that the MAGNET IS ALWAYS ON and we get to decide if we will be pulled to the POSITIVE or the NEGATIVE pole. We have so much power over our own happiness! We can choose to be happy (2 Nephi 2:27) and magnetize ourselves for others who are choosing to be happy (or seeking for happiness). When this is our conscious choice we can change our own reality and destiny. Let me continue with my example!
I was actually shopping for Easter when I became keenly aware of the staring and was almost in tears, until I was in the check-out and a wonderful woman named Keena decided to talk to me. She asked how I was doing and I quietly said, “I’m OK!”, I then saw the signs of her hair just growing back, the pain etched in her face, and the depth in her eyes.
She went on to tell me about her cancer story and her battle. She empowered me to see things in a positive way. Since meeting her and being reminded of the power of the positive MAGNET, I have made the decision to smile in stores, instead of being afraid of the stares and pity. Not surprisingly, my burden has been lifting by others approaching me and sharing; by me approaching others and sharing.
I know that not all of us will have to walk through a store with no hair on our heads, but I know that as humans we share the emotions behind that experience. We have all felt like the ‘odd man out’ and the cure is to remember, “DANGER! THIS MAGNET IS ALWAYS ON.” We must remember that Satan desires to pull us down, so that we cannot be someone else’s “Keena” and experience joy ( Helaman 5:12). We cannot allow him to have this type of pull and influence on us and thwart our path. What will our MAGNET attract? (Matt. 5:16)
So I can consciously say, “I’m going to miss this. I’m going to want this back. I’m going to wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast. These are some good times, I’ll take a good look around …” and let this experience refine me and hopefully I can STAND STILL until God provides a way for me to accomplish the things I need to do in this life (Doctrine and Covenants 5:34).